It’s been about two weeks since my last post. But have I done anything “worthy” of webspace? Do I write for me? OR to ward off emails? Or to share a message? Or because I think I’m cool?

Since then, I have done the following:
–went to Danang over the weekend and bought what will be beautiful hangings for my doors
–lost my house, work, motorbike keys (not robbed, I misplaced!)
–hip hopped to some v. cool electronica beats (innovation, I like it!)
–caved into having a cleaner attack my studio with sanitizing agents
–held an American Idol finale party

I remain thwarted in my attempts/dreams/hopes in the below:
–making shoes
–attempting to bellly dance
–volunteering (soon, soon, soon)
–keeping a regular schedule

I am not cool. I am confused often and usually am a bit of a mess in the head…being busy is not helping me. I want to write more for myself, in my green satin journal. Do I want to be in public places open to conversations or do I prefer the solitude of my place? Can I be a loner in a social shell? I am not a socialite or a smoozer really. I prefer deep relationships. I don’t want to know everyone out there. I want to be your friend…Friday is here but I feel it should be Tuesday sometime in MARCH!

Two more trips planned for June. I don’t want to fly no more. I want to lie on my hammock and watch movies while the world passes. But I need to maintain relationships or ppl will think I’m antisocial.

SHOULD, SHOULD, WOULD, COULD, WHAT TO DO? ZZZZZZZ UM UGH ERRRRRR SHOULD OR WANT OR WHAT OR NONE OF THE ABOVE. I NEED HELP. PRAYER. TIME. PEACE. TIME TIME TIME YESSSSSS….

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So previous to 2008, I hadn’t been though I had heard many marvelous things.

Then w/in a span of 5 weeks, I was there 3 times (ok once was for work)! Let’s just say “it’s a good thing!”

To date, let’s just say it’s one of the best vacay spots in VN Just avoid the rainy season which is now til October. Any day any way, the seafood is good

New treats to return for:

–Buddy Ice Cream! From N.Zealand and so delicious!!! I can still taste it!
–Le Deauville, very sweet resto owned by an Olivier rite on the beach! Innovative dishes and great atmosphere
–the monkeys!
–the peace and quiet massive stretches of beach to explore

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Nothing cheers me up quite like this little gem. It is truly the best gift I have ever received (FROM SHELDON YOUNG)! It’s reusable for all your living days and even when you neglect it, it never goes out of style b/c it’s a calendar w/o the year or day marked on it.

So I’m not down but I am beat. My pick-me-upper says today:

“Politeness is a small price to pay for the goodwill and affection of others.”

That’s okay but I flip forward to the weekend and see, “A friend is one who comes to you when all others leave.”

The 18th’s got me smiling: “No echoes return to mock the silent tongue.”
Touche! This calendar chides gently and helps me regain perspective. A gem for everyday

Some more perhaps? “Do you see difficulties in every opportunity, or opportunities in every difficulty?”

“That load becomes light which is cheerfully borne.”

“Remember that the coin you clutch has never brought happiness. The world and you will profit more from sincere thoughtfulness.”

Sincere thoughtfulness…I know I do much that is without thinking…I could use more positive ponderings like this one.

Ahhhh now that’s a breath of fresh air.

The calendar is officially entitled Apples of Gold (ok slightly cheesy) and is considered a day brightener…YES it is

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Immediately upon return to the city, this is how I feel:

–hot, it’s always hotter here than anywhere else :> )
–ewwwww, my studio needs a massive cleaning but I refuse to use the cleaner!
–stress, 1/3 of my head is not with it!
–withdrawal, and my body has to catch up with everything

I feel best occupied with other things away from here but I live here now. I don’t get it so much. I think the solution is to stick around and wait it out and be active in HCMC but I tend to leave whenever I can. One cannot settle if one is absent right?

Escapism. Procrastination. Alone more than in a crowd. Ugh!
God, please help me.

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