The challenges of nothing…much
After much activity in the first half of 2008, I have now been in my new home city for about 3 weeks in a ROW. I know, like totally normal pour la plupart des gens. But alas, for me, it’s a feat, something to be cherished actually.
However, I have not been without guests. I figure that my life is constantly jostled by a continuous flow of new ppl passing through visiting Vietnam and I just happen to be in position of meeting and greeting them.
Mais je suis fatiguee. Maybe I’m getting “old” or whatever, but I am pretty contented to go home every night and flop on my bed or swing in my hammock and watch K-dramas and Flight of the Conchords.
I recently came to the realization that I don’t have to be doing something at every moment of my life. I CAN RELAX once in awhile. But my first instinct is to resist it, TO FIGHT IT, TO DO SOMETHING. Have you ever been challenged by a somewhat “empty” schedule? In this HCMC life, I have challenges that I haven’t faced before–EVER. It’s the task of living in a city of 8 million people and not having at least 1 million friends. It’s the fact that I don’t have a place I need to be all the time. It’s the question of what do I want to do for myself. It’s much ado about perhaps….nothing!
Maybe some call it freedom; others will say boredom/loneliness. I say it’s new but good. I was praying for a challenge and I think this is part of it: to do well when doing, well, pretty much nothing. OR maybe I can say while doing nothing too exciting…like living steadily w/o constant changes. That’s better: the challenge is to do something in times of peace and quiet.
Must DOs: mop, stop grocery shopping, change lighting and curtains, manage clothing situation, and that that gushy stuff which was oh-so-neglected in more hectic times. Adjusting to regularity, that’s what I’m doing.
BTW slightly soured fancy melon smells like rotten fish….ciaoness 😉